First Do No Harm

One of the first things I did when my family moved to our house a few years ago was buy a decent bird feeder. I filled it with seed and hung it from an eave on the porch, and less than a minute later a couple of black-capped chickadees flitted over to investigate. Before long song sparrows joined them, and then dark-eyed juncos, house finches, spotted towhees, others. From the kitchen I watched happily as a little community assembled itself.

Not everyone in the household shared my enthusiasm. We live in Seattle and like most cities Seattle has an abundance of rats. The locals soon discovered the feeder. At first they came only at night as single spies, but when time went by and nothing killed them, they grew bold. One afternoon my wife saw a nice big fat rat casually sorting through the birds’ castoffs.

“A rat!” she yelled. She hates rats.

“But just one this time!” I protested.

She gaped. “You mean you’ve seen more than one?!

So that was a problem. She had loftier objections, too. “You’re always going on and on about wildness!” she said. “How is feeding birds at all consistent with that?” The ones flocking to the feeder, she pointed out, had been doing just fine on their own before. Wouldn’t it be better to attend to our yard in such a way so they can forage for a steady diet of insects and plant seeds, rather than plucking stale peanuts and millet out of a silo? Worse, isn’t feeding birds and reveling in their antics simply reducing them to mere entertainments? Here I was, an ecologist who studied birds, trying to entice them to me “like you’re Snow White.”

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Snapshot: Streamside Snake

Coiled brown and tan snake on rocks

One of the great pleasures of the pandemic era has been going on hikes with my dad. We live in the Washington, D.C. area. When you think of this area, you may not think of hiking. But my parents live quite close to an undeveloped ravine with beautiful tall trees, kingfishers, and the occasional Common Watersnake. (I think. Someone who knows your herps, please correct me.) One Sunday afternoon in September, this little buddy was on a strip of rubble deposited by a recent flood, which had washed out a big chunk of bank just upstream. Soon after I took this, the snake slithered off to the water and draped itself over a branch, letting the current hold it in place.

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See another picture of this same river, a few miles downstream. I also hike with my dad in National Parks and stuff.

List of Delights

A delight I failed to write down, but was able to photograph: arresting driftwood on the Oregon Coast.

Up here in Seattle we have reached the Dark Wet season, which always leaves me grasping for any glimmer of hope or joy. I have always liked the idea of keeping a gratitude journal, but the few times I’ve tried it, I end up fixating on the same lovely things in my life, like friends and family and having a warm bed to sleep in (usually because I am writing in said journal from the warm bed). Recently, I picked up Ross Gay’s Book of Delights, a series of lovely essays Gay wrote about small pleasures he encountered in the course of his days: the joy of writing on paper, being called baby by a flight attendant, how nice it is when people have nicknames. (Sidenote: it feels extremely unfair when poets write prose. The precision and sparkle of their words! See also: Ocean Vuong’s work.) Inspired by Gay, I wondered what small things I’d notice if I committed to keeping my own running tab of delights.

So, what is a delight? After a couple months of writing mine down, I’m still not sure. I do know what it’s not: it can’t be a personal accomplishment, or something I have personally manufactured for my own joy, like going on vacation. Most often, they are fleeting, hard-to-capture moments that I would otherwise forget — ones that generate unexpected emotion: amusement, surprise, awe, reverence. My only rule was that delights cannot be forced; whatever I put on the list had to provoke a genuine moment of excitement in me. All the better if I have no clue why I’ve been drawn to something. Initially, I’d wanted to find one delight a day, but I quickly found that some days just aren’t delightful.

The practice of maintaining this list has been a delight in itself. The simple act of holding onto the memory so I can write it down later only prolongs the delight, and a little ping of satisfaction strikes again whenever I enter the item into the list.

A sampling:

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Sam Sells Seashells By the Seashore

This originally appeared in 2015.
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There’s a popular myth about Dutch last names that goes like this: When Napoleon occupied the Netherlands and instituted a family name registry, only the upper classes had such names already in use. A significant subset took the opportunity to protest foreign rule by registering under silly names like “Born Naked,” “The Criminal” and “Little Poops”. Even in modern times, after changing ones name became a simple paper exercise, the Dutch held on to their prank names.

While the truth is less exciting – any silliness likely predates Napolean, and some names only sound silly to an English ear – the audacity of such a rebellion keeps the idea of it alive. Also, the notion that families would become attached to those names rings true to those who understand human nature.

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Snapshot: Anti-Christmas Tree

(An unauthorized continuation of “Things We Like”)

Scattered along the deep ravines and canyons where I live are trees called ghost, or sometimes grey, pines. The trees are scraggly and uncharismatic. “Scarcely in any sense a beautiful tree,” Willis Jepson, one of California’s early botanists, wrote of them in 1901, they give “no comfort of shade to the inexperienced wayfarer who, dusty and sun-bitten, seeks its protection.”

But I love ghost pines, which thrive in the poor, rocky soils of California’s foothills. I especially love their enormous cones, which grow as big as pineapples. I’ve been admiring this one on my desk, searching for any pine nuts the squirrels might have left behind, and watching insects circumnavigate its girth. I like its heft and overlapping, talon-sharp scales, which make it look like a medieval instrument of torture. You won’t find this pine cone in a bag of cinnamon-scented holiday potpourri, or glue-gunned to a wreath.

What We’ve Liked: Everything

We’ve done this before, talked about the books and films and everything else we’ve liked. Here are our lists from years gone by. And if you should be so moved, we also offer books we ourselves have written.

Ann:  I like lemon ginger scones.  They are buttery, a tiny lemon bite and a bigger ginger bite, and a quiet antidote to you-know-what. 

ChristieFat Gold is genuine California olive oil and it’s delicious! It’s made by independent producers, and each shipment comes with a delightful little zine, and each batch is unique. 

Kate:  I’ve been telling everyone about these easy but cosmically delicious beet, arugula, and goat cheese grilled cheeses. You could roast your own beets, but you don’t have to; I get mine pre-roasted in the produce aisle. Prepare for a life-altering experience. 

Ann:  Oh Kate! You’re making me remember the cosmically delicious beet and halloumi recipe which consists of cooked sliced beets and sauteed sliced halloumi, the slices of beet and cheese alternating in a stack that falls apart as soon as you try to cut it.  But I don’t see halloumi in the store any more; of course, I don’t go to the store any more either. 

Ben:  Does “everything” refer to food? It seems like that’s where we’re heading. Well, I recently attended a dinner/book-signing event here in Spokane featuring the chef Hank Shaw and nabbed his new cookbook, Hook, Line, and Supper (bet you’ll never guess what it’s about). So far I recommend the salmon piccata.  

Cameron:  I am breaking from food to say that it is my new favorite thing to run while listening to podcasts. This is not something I’d ever thought I could do–I thought I needed music! Exciting, loud (but not too loud), upbeat running music! But it turns out that podcasts are also really great in a different way, it’s like running with a great conversationalist who won’t notice if you’re breathing hard. Old favorite: Emerging Form, co-hosted by LWON’s own Christie Aschwanden. New favorite: Otherppl with Brad Listi. Just today I did a long run and listened to his conversation with George Saunders and came home feeling much better about the world. And also wanting to eat a huge breakfast. 

Helen:  Sewing. I really like sewing these days. It’s so much faster than knitting. Oh, is this supposed to be about buying things? Well, here’s my favorite source of fabric: Swanson’s Fabric, a specialty thrift store in western Massachusetts. Follow the owner on social media for many strong opinions about textiles, clothing, and capitalism.

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What We’ve Liked: Films/TVs

We’ve done this before, talked about the books we’ve liked. Here are our lists from years gone by. And if you should be so moved, we also offer books we ourselves have written.

Cameron:  Maybe this is boring, but I liked a lot of the new seasons of Netflix series this summer. Especially Lupin (Omar Sy!!!!!!!) and Never Have I Ever (high school love triangles, which I love almost as much as Omar Sy as Lupin!!!!!!). Also: Loki. I guess I’m a target audience? Or several target audiences?

Ann:  Yes, I liked the Netflix series too.  I watched The Two Popes twice because those actors are such that I am totally convinced I’m watching Benedict and Francis real life; I’ll watch it again.  I also watched Queens Gambit twice, mostly for the impeccable visual artistry in the colors, costumes, wallpaper, and the main character’s makeup — which somehow work together to create the unreal, intense, windowless focus that must be a chess champion’s mind.  Plus, The Dig which I’ll watch again to see if those actors can make me get obsessed with the Anglo-Saxon treasures all over again; and the book is just as good.

Ben:  I recently watched Squid Game, and was disappointed to learn that it was not, in fact, another captivating documentary about cephalopod play-behavior. I didn’t love it; Hunger Games has a similar plot but more heart (not to mention better games!), and Parasite explores class warfare in South Korea much more cleverly. One thing I did appreciate about Game of Squids, though, was its careful attention to the role of labor on its little island. We see the infamous pink-costumed guards sleeping in their cubicles, stirring sugar into big vats, washing away blood, and disposing of bodies. It’s all gruesome, of course (well, not the sugar part so much) but it does seem like the show’s creators put a lot of thought into the mechanics of their grisly world. 

Jane:  Forgive me if I’m being presumptuous, but I would be willing to bet that the esteemed readers of LWON are not the kind of people who are into reality television. But did you like Bad Art Friend? If so, I invite you to join me in watching terrible shows like The Bachelorette and Selling Sunset. At heart, they deal with the same theme: people treating each other horribly while trying to make meaning in their own, silly lives — all while the story is told through a seemingly omniscient, “objective” lens, but one which is in itself biased and telling about its creators and about US culture in general. I particularly enjoy looking for moments of accidental authenticity in the show; if you get sucked in, too, let’s discuss the rich text of these reality stars’ Instagram accounts (as some sociologists have done!).  

Helen:  The confluence of a large selection of great TV and a freaking pandemic means that I’ve enjoyed many series over the last year and a half. It’s hard to even know where to start. So I’ll just stick to my most recent love: Only Murders in the Building on Hulu. It stars Steve Martin, Martin Short, and Selena Gomez as New Yorkers who decide to create a podcast when someone in their building is murdered. It combines cozy mystery and physical comedy and avoids the obvious jokes about young people these days. (Selena Gomez: 100% holding her own.) Nathan Lane is in it, and Sting, and Tina Fey. It’s just a delight. Worth a one-month subscription to Hulu. 

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What We’ve Liked: Books

We’ve done this before, talked about the books we’ve liked. Here are our lists from years gone by. And if you should be so moved, we also offer books we ourselves have written.

Helen: The most entertaining reading I’ve done lately is a pair of young adult novels set in the near future: Catfishing on CatNet and its sequel, Chaos on CatNet. In the first book, a teenage girl keeps getting moved around to different small towns by her mom, who’s trying to hide them from her dad, who may or may not be evil. Since she moves so much, all of her friends are on the internet – specifically, on a website devoted to cat photos. The friends have real-life adventures with danger and cats. A sentient AI narrates some of the chapters. The high school’s sex ed class is taught by a robot. I started the first book out of a sense of obligation, because I went to college with the author, Naomi Kritzer, then raced through it in a few days and immediately got hold of the second one.  

Jane:  My favorite way to read is to receive a recommendation and then resolve to know absolutely nothing about the book before I start reading. This is how I came upon Beth Morgan’s A Touch of Jen, so I will do you the same favor: just dive in, because it’s much better if you know nothing to start. The only thing I’ll say is that at no point did I know where the book was going, and I dropped everything for 48 hours to finish it. Morgan is darkly funny, and her characters are so deliciously hateable, yet uncomfortably relatable. Just be prepared to make little noises of surprise or disgust as you’re reading and set aside an hour to process once you’ve finished reading. 

Ann:  I just read Colm Toibin’s The Magician because I read all his novels. His range is rangier than any writer except maybe Penelope Fitzgerald: he has Brooklyn/Ireland novels, antiquity novels; and now with The Magician, novels whose main characters are novelists telling not other peoples’ stories but their own real lives.  The other novel like this is The Master.  In these two, master and magician, the characters are Henry James and Thomas Mann, respectively — and Toibin is good enough to get away with this.  But The Magician, the Mann book, seemed rote, as though Toibin was working card by card through his research notes. So I reread The Master, the James book, to see if it was also rote and no, it’s not, not a bit of it.  Now I have a theory that Toibin crawled inside his characters, and the Henry James character talks with James’ real voice — wordy, over-subtle, way too perceptive, personally reserved. And the Thomas Mann character uses Mann’s real voice which is also wordy and reserved, but not subtle, not perceptive, plus self-impressed, pontifical, and pedantic, like he’s talking from note cards. Or maybe Toibin just got tired, sometimes a person can get tired.  Still, both books are fascinating and I like them better than I do the biographies that satisfy the same need: who are these people, these authors?

Rebecca: Giving birth and then raising a baby is the most primal thing I’ve ever done, twice. So many times in the past few months, I have held my infant daughter and thought, “Look at this primate.” That’s what she is, just another in the chain of primates, repeating the cycle. I have felt in my bones that I am a mammal. I realized that all of the mammals who have gone before me have held and beheld their children in just the same way that I do. Nothing has changed through all of human evolution, except maybe the clothing. We are all just mammals. So I was drawn to the concept of this book Nightbitch, which, I thought, was about a mother who turns into a werewolf. Nightbitch, by Rachel Yoder, is actually about much more than the animalistic experience of becoming a mother and raising a baby. It’s about expectations, the patriarchy, solitude, fear, love, dogs, meat, despair, anger, mommy cliques, and the necessity of art. I don’t want to give anything else away; I’ll just say that I bookmarked every other page until I finally gave up and just started telling every mother I know to read it, as soon as possible.  

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