A Space Elk Named Monique

This post originally appeared on April 15, 2020. I’m republishing it today because 1) I’m deep into editing a book that includes a chapter on Wyoming’s mammal migrations, so mobile elk are top of mind; and 2) bands of elk have begun wandering through the fields near my house in Colorado. I’m not sure where they’re coming from, or where they’re headed, but it’s clearly the season for ungulate movement. If only one of them were satellite-collared…

Among my favorite forms of visual art is the wildlife movement map. (Yes, I’m a philistine.) I love the clustered territories formed by rival wolf packs, the filamentous corridors of migratory mule deer, the mystifying circuits of great white sharks. They are, first, aesthetically beautiful, both abstract and intricately structured, like a Jackson Pollock canvas. More than that, they reveal the hidden architecture of the wild world, a cryptic animal infrastructure that whispers across our own paved routes. We might all be homebound and stationary these days, but other creatures remain as wide-ranging as ever. 

These maps have become such a staple of wildlife research that it’s easy to forget the sophisticated technology that underpins them. Modern GPS tracking units communicate with orbiting satellites, storing coordinates every few hours — in some cases, every few minutes. Like all tech, these remarkable devices are the products of decades of experimentation, iterative failure, and innovation. Recently I found myself wondering about the animal subjects who participated, unwillingly and unwittingly, in their development. Who was the first creature to wear a satellite collar, and how did it go? 

That’s how I became acquainted with Monique the Space Elk. 

Really, Monique was two elk, both of whom were outfitted with satellite collars in early 1970 — almost fifty years ago on the dot, in fact. The Moniques belonged to a migratory herd of 7,000 animals that wintered on the National Elk Refuge just south of Yellowstone National Park, and then went…  well, no one quite knew where. Although John and Frank Craighead, twin brothers and legendary wildlife researchers, had long studied the region’s elk movements, their tracking methods were rudimentary. In the 1960s they’d fitted thousands of animals with color-coded necklaces, then hiked around Yellowstone searching for their bands. The herculean project revealed patches of habitat, but offered scant insight into how the animals moved between them — a Connect-the-Dots illustration with no dots connected. 

Those gaps, the Craigheads vowed, would be filled in 1970. The previous year, they’d struck up a partnership with NASA to develop a newfangled elk tracking collar that would communicate with a weather satellite called the Nimbus 3. The collar cost $25,000, weighed 23 pounds — most of it a sheath of protective fiberglass — and would beam its wearer’s location and skin temperature, along with the ambient air temperature and light conditions, to the Nimbus every day. 

A new era of wildlife biology had dawned. “The beauty of the experiment,” John Craighead told reporters in February 1970, “is that we can daily monitor elk at distant or remote locations where it might be impossible to go into the field and visually watch her.”

That information, Craighead added, wasn’t merely academic. The environmental movement was ascendant, the inaugural Earth Day just two months away. Satellite gathering, Craighead said, was “one of many research tools that scientists need if man is to prevent further global pollution of air and water and destruction of plant and animal life.” The Space Elk wouldn’t just carry a collar that weighed as much as a Boston terrier — she would bear the burden of planetary salvation.

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♀ vs. ♀

Oh jeez I should not write about this. I don’t even want to. I’m doing it anyway. It’s this professional tension between senior women astronomers and junior women astronomers which I hear about it from the juniors, not a lot and never loudly, but intensely. I think — I think — I see both sides and I want these sides to see each other; because as the late Madeleine Albright said, “There’s a special place in hell for women who don’t help each other.”

Let me start with an obvious fact that junior women astronomers thoroughly and completely understand: that they owe their relatively relatively (I said RELATIVELY) unsuppressed, un-sat-upon professional lives to the senior women astronomers who didn’t leave the field and didn’t quit reminding and arguing and legislating and didn’t give up, never gave up.

But here’s the tension. Senior women fought it out in one world and the juniors’ world is entirely different. Senior women, speaking from their world, tell the juniors things like, dress to not be noticed; be careful about taking a job offered as a spousal hire; have two things in your life, science and family, and don’t talk about the family; and if some guy makes a pass at you, shine it on, get over it. The juniors think they can dress professionally and still be noticeable; can be spousal hires; can talk about family and have lives and friends and hobbies; and if the guy doesn’t back off or even if he does, they can tell everybody about him, including his name. So far, so good; I wrote about this difference in the worlds a while ago.

That’s a reporter’s view from outside the two worlds. But I’ve lived in some of the same world as the senior women and see some of it, anyway, from the inside. Best to explain this with an anecdote.

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Spring rain

this post originally appeared April 30, 2021

First snowmelt, and a month of dry,

but the rain finally comes,

and everything is flowers, for a time.

Categorized in: Miscellaneous

instructions for a permission ceremony

ingredients:

  • good friends you trust
  • a list of things you need permission for
  • time, space
  • snot bandana and/or tissues (optional but recommended)

instructions:

  1. gather
  2. share and explain your list of things you need permission for
  3. friends give you permission: i hereby give you permission to….
  4. give permission to self: i give myself permission to….
  5. cry (optional)

notes: kate, our friend tien, and i have been working on various big and new projects (personal and professional), which has brought various big and new feelings into our lives. (“what gives me the right to do this?” i thought. “doesn’t someone else need to sign off on this?!”) to give ourselves permission to lean into these changes, we held a permission ceremony last week. we loved it so much we wanted to share our experience with the fine people of LWON. kate and i hopped on gchat (yes, gchat still exists!) to debrief and explain; our conversation is below.

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The Ultimate Wedding Planning Checklist

Paradise Lost, John Martin, British Library

With so many details to arrange, planning a wedding can feel overwhelming. Don’t worry! So long as you complete the following tasks in the order listed below, you’ll be just fine. Remember: This is about you, your betrothed, your families, and everyone you’ve ever met or might encounter! It’s possible (though by no means certain) that you’ll only do this once, so have fun with it!

12-plus months out

☙ Hire wedding planner
☙ Summon Council of the Wise
☙ Agree on a budget
☙ Order alchemical supplies for transmuting base metals into gold
☙ Hire personal trainer
☙ Plant magic beans
☙ Draw up your guest list
☙ Slay lion with impervious fur of gold and claws sharper than mortals’ swords

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Life’s Seasons Change

Me & Dad on his birthday, 2021

My Dad’s birthday is this weekend, and just as I did last year, I’m going to Albuquerque to celebrate with him. Last year, I drove down the day after my second covid vaccine and it felt like the world was on the verge of returning to normal. 

We celebrated Dad’s birthday last year on the patio of a nice restaurant and Dad and I went on multiple bike rides during my visit. He’d been tracking his mileage with the aim of riding 100 miles each week, and even at age 77 he had the oomph to pedal up the very steep hill back to the house without any thought. 

This year, we won’t be biking on Dad’s birthday. A stroke knocked him down last summer, and he remains unable to use his left side. Mentally, he’s still his old self, but physically he is completely dependent on others (Mom) for Every. Single. Thing. 

Being so physically helpless is a difficult turn of events for my tough fighter pilot dad, but the most remarkable thing about it is how resilient and upbeat he has shown himself to be. There are so many things he can’t do (biking, astronomy, driving his old pickup truck, to name just a few), but he’s focusing on the things he can — read, listen to music, visit with friends. And he’s even taken up a few new pastimes, like watercolor painting. 

When he’s lying in bed, unable to get up and grab a book or look up at the stars, he’ll sometimes close his eyes and recount happy memories from his life. Some nights, he’ll lay in bed recounting all the flights he’s flown. He revisits the places he’s taken off from, the routes he’s navigated from the air, sights he’s seen, runways he’s landed on.  

Some days it breaks my heart to think about all he’s lost, but on others I think about all the friends my age who have lost their fathers and focus instead on how lucky I am to have such a great dad who is still around to tell me stories and share in my life. 

A few years ago when I was busy writing my book and without much time to spare, my dad made a comment that has stayed with me. “You are in the prime of your life right now. You’re busy with your work and your own life and that’s how it should be. I remember that time when I was your age,” he said. 

I think that what he was saying was that our lives have seasons. Dad has entered a new era, and although his physical capacities have diminished, he is as intellectually engaged as ever. If the last few years were his age of physical motion, now is his time to exercise his mind. 

Dad’s mind has always been active, and the fact that he now spends much of his time watching nerdy academics give YouTube lectures on physics and astronomy tells me that he is still totally my dad, as engaged and curious as ever.

We might not be biking up the Grand Mesa together this summer, but we can discuss the latest issues of New Scientist, the new James Webb space telescope and why it’s ok that Pluto is no longer considered a planet. I hope that we’ll even go see an Isotopes baseball game together. I love my dad with all my heart, and I intend to savor every moment we have together. 

Rare Birds

A few days ago, a friend texted me that a red-flanked bluetail had been spotted a couple of miles from where I live. I had to look up what a red-flanked bluetail was. Turns out that the red-flanked bluetail—also known as the orange-flanked bush-robin—is a small songbird with red flanks (or orange flanks, I guess, depending on who’s looking?) and a blue tail (which isn’t always a big deal?). More to the point, the species normally ranges throughout Asia and Europe, so in the Seattle area it is quite the rarity.

News of the bluetail left me largely unmoved. I like birds a lot, as people who know me know, but I don’t chase rarities. I don’t have any profound philosophical reasons for this. I’m just lazy, and the thought of skulking around the suburbs for hours only to stand among the peering hordes just this side of some befuddled schlub’s property line so I can stare at some distant smudge in the bushes is not why I got into birding.

On second thought, there might just be a tiny bit of philosophy undergirding my studied disinterest.

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Science(ish) Poem: Right Then

A blue jay perched on a wooden fence, looking back at the camera.

Many of my poems are not autobiographical, but this one is. I can still remember that moment: the early-morning air, the flash of blue. The pang I felt.

In the intervening years I’ve gotten to know blue jays much better as a species and as individuals. I’ve spent endless hours reading about them, watching them, talking to them, and listening. I’ve studied an audio glossary of jay calls and songs in the vain hopes of learning to understand at least a little of their language. Still, the birds of this poem have their own private, gleaming little niche in my memory, vivid and tender as a bruise.


Right Then

Ransacking the grass
at the edge of the parking lot,
the loveliest jay
I’ve ever seen.

His features,
so fine. His blues,
so bright.

He cocks his crest
at my idling car
:

I sigh behind the wheel.

He screams.
Another bird flutters down.

She is smaller than her mate,
her neck feathers
mute and iridescent
as shade-grown violets.

Two hops and he is gone
into the brambles. She follows
:

Right then.
That’s when I miss you.

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Image via Unsplash. A version of this poem originally appeared in Passionfruit.