I Know What the Fox Says

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I haven’t heard the foxes for a good year now. The woods is still there but the owners sold it to a buyer who promised to cut down only the middle of it, you know how buyers promise things. No trees have been cut down yet but a lot of people have been tramping through the woods, measuring and discussing. Maybe the foxes got tired of the people, maybe they know what’s coming; but in any case, they probably got up and left. Not everything ends well.

This first ran September 8, 2016.

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Across the street are two houses with two small yards, connected so they look like one, shaded by trees, one of which has a rope looped in it. The little kids come out of both houses, run through the shade into the dapple-spots of sunlight, disappear back into the shade, grab the rope and swing, climb up into the tree and perch like little panthers. Sometimes they sing. And one twilight, running into and out of the light, what they sang was “What does the fox say?”

The song was popular a few years ago but I’d never listened to it.  I went inside and googled it.  It’s an unsettlingly weird song by a Norwegian — what is it with those far northerners and their pale skins and light eyes and strange stories? The song is about a guy who knows that dogs say woof and elephants say toot but doesn’t know what the fox says; so a bunch of people dressed in animal costumes dancing in a woods tell him what the fox says, which is, among other things, Ring-ding-ding-ding-dingeringeding! Wa-pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-pow! Joff-tchoff-tchoffo-tchoffo-tchoff! You get the idea, they’re making it up, they don’t know what the fox says either.  These sounds, coming out of the dark from kids in trees across the street, Fraka-kaka-kaka-kaka-kow!, were also unsettlingly weird.

I didn’t used to know what the fox said either. And that’s odd because I grew up on a small farm set in fields, backing on to woods. That’s prime fox territory. We kept chickens, and foxes would get into the chicken house and kill them. I knew it was foxes because my mother said so. But I never heard a fox.

So decades later, hundreds of miles away, in a city, I woke up one night hearing an unholy scream. It didn’t sound human, it didn’t even sound animal.  I looked out the window and saw a large fox, long tail held out behind, walking slowly down the street, stopping every now and then to lift its head and scream. You have to hear that sound to believe it. It sounded like it came from a time before animals.

That was years ago; the fox lived in a woods behind the houses across the street. I now recognize the sound — it’s been called a vixen scream. Foxes live maybe five years, says Google, so that any foxes I hear now are probably its children. The neighbors keep track of them; on summer mornings they say, “Did you hear the fox last night?” For weeks they talked about one large one that limped; I never saw it.  After a while no one saw a limping fox again so either the fox died or it stopped limping.

One night this summer, a neighbor and I were sitting on the porch as it got dark, talking about this and that.  I was in the middle of saying something when she froze and nodded toward the street. There, walking down the middle, through the pools of street lights, was a fox and two cubs, maybe adolescents, all three sticking together.  They might be heading toward the creek at the bottom of the street. They walked out of the dark, into the street lights, appearing, disappearing, reappearing, the way the little kids across the street moved in and out of the light. They slipped under cars, walked back into the street.  Then they walked off into the dark, not saying a word, not saying any of the things that foxes say.

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Photo by Oliver Truckle, via Flickr

10,000 Hours of Midlife Crisis

It’s been said and often quoted that 10,000 hours of doing anything will make you a master. Never mind the squishy definition of mastery that makes it apocryphal, I believe it.

When the term mastery is used, I figure it’s not that you’ve risen flawlessly to becoming a great chef or engineer, but that you’ve managed to corral dysfunctions enough to let your functional side shine through. This might lead to becoming that great chef or engineer. You’ve mastered crawling out of the trash compactor of life and made something of it. Congratulations.

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Farewell David Corcoran, Dearest of Editors

One of the finest editors I’ve ever known has died, and I’m heartbroken. 

David Corcoran was my first editor at the New York Times, but over the 12 years that I knew him he also became an advocate and a friend.

David was kind and supportive like a good dad. His tenor let me know that he trusted my judgement, and his confidence spilled over to me as I set out to report a story. His edits were always gentle and affirming. He never failed to leave a story better than it was before, and he always worked in service of the story, not his own ego. I’ve never met an editor with a more adept touch. I can’t ever recall getting an edit back from him that didn’t make me happy. Ask any writer — that’s a very rare thing! 

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Savor All the Pieces of Moment

I recently bought a camera that prints pictures immediately upon exposing them. Remember those? It’s pretty fun, and it’s nice if, like me, you take a lot of pictures and then save them in your iCloud and forget to look at them. Or at least forget until your phone sends you an automated “memory,” and then they cause a catch in your throat when you realize that was two years ago? How?

Anyway I got it on Amazon, where I get too many things (I think I need an intervention) and that meant it was a good deal, and that it came with a whole kit of extras. There were stickers and cheap plastic frames and tiny clothespins on a string and a little photo album. The instructions were in badly translated Japanese (it’s a Fujifilm). But the album is what got my attention. 

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Rearticulation

Skull of a North American river otter (Lontra canadensis)

In 2015, Sarah Grimes picked up this river otter’s carcass on a rugged beach covered in tumbled sea glass. She removed its skin and flesh and soaked its bones first in warm water, then Borax. She kept each section of the skeleton — legs, paws, spine – in a separate mesh bag so the bones wouldn’t get mixed up. Then she cleaned the bones and put the skeleton back together, a process called rearticulation.

Grimes is the Marine Mammal Stranding Coordinator for the Noyo Center for Marine Science in Fort Bragg, California. She is trained and permitted to pick up dead sea mammals and judge how they died. This river otter looked thin, and probably starved to death – its displaced hip joint would have made it difficult to swim. “Poor little nugget,” she said, showing me where the otter’s leg once attached to the rest of the skeleton.

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Hoverflying in Plain Sight

A fly hovers at a columbine blossom
(not a bee)

Six years ago in July I was in London for a week, and one day a bee was banging itself against the skylight at my friend’s house, over the desk where I was working. After being annoyed by it for a while—c’mon, bug, the skylight is open—it occurred to me that this wasn’t a very bee-like thing to do. Bees don’t get stuck inside, then bang themselves against windows. Bees bumble. Even the ones that aren’t bumblebees bumble.

This animal was definitely banging, and from somewhere in the depths of my mind I pulled the fact that there are flies that look like bees. If I set aside its stripes, I could tell that it was acting like a fly, it sounded like a fly and, if you could get past the coloration, it looked like a fly—huge eyes, fly-shaped wings.

Here are some facts about hoverflies that I had to check on the internet:

  • A hoverfly really is a fly, not some other kind of thing masquerading as a fly. Like the other flies, it only has two wings. (Bees, like most flying bugs, have four.)
  • You can call them hover flies if you prefer. In fact, neither of the paper dictionaries I checked at home even list “hoverfly” as one word. “Flower flies” is also good. Or “syrphids,” which seems like it ought to be poetic but actually comes from the Greek for “gnat.”
  • Like bees, many of them are pollinators.
  • Unlike bees, many of them eat aphids. (That’s when they’re maggots; when they grow up, they feed on nectar or pollen.)
  • Looking like bees probably helps protect them from predators.

This summer I was hiking in Rocky Mountain National Park. At some point in the last six years I became used to the existence of these hoverflies, and now, when I see something buzzing around a flower, I don’t immediately think “bee.”

This time the hoverflies particularly stuck out. As I approached the treeline, the altitude where trees give up and the landscape turns to stubby little plants that can make it through the harsh winter, it seemed like I saw hoverflies everywhere. They were buzzing and darting around the flowers, moving just like flies.

Like so many things we ignore, hoverflies are incredibly diverse; there are thousands of species, going about their business without the average person paying much attention. (Or am I wrong about the average person? Probably. When I think of my reader, I think of a middle-class, college-educated city dweller; probably the true, global average person instantly catches on when something is behaving unlike a bee.)

It comes to me again and again how important classification is for seeing. I knew what lichens were, but it wasn’t until I realized how to look for them that I saw them everywhere. Same with the hoverfly. Out there, hatching, eating aphids, then growing up and pollinating flowers, just one of many neighbors doing its job while I do mine.

Photo: Helen Fields (that’s me)

Zee Lady

Confession time: I used to be a peach hater. What was wrong with me? It’s a question I often find myself asking, too.

Part of it was the pit. When I first saw a peach cut open, I was a kid. It was summer, and I was at a swimming pool. The pit looked like a tiny withered brain. A brain that left bloody marks on the peach flesh all around it, a brain that came out smeared with yellow slime.

A friend told me that the pit was poisonous. In my mind, the poison infused the whole peach, becoming a deadly pink-yellow time bomb, my own forbidden fruit. (It’s true that a peach pit contains amygdalin, which turns into hydrogen cyanide once you eat the pit—so don’t eat peach pits!—but you’d likely have to eat a lot of them to have real problems. This woman ate as many as 40 apricot pits and survived.)

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